I have always kept my personal life fairly "personal" on this blog. My objective was never to create an On-Line journal, or personal diary ... so to speak. With that said, the last month has been one that I never want to re-live again, yet I looked forward to my new start all the while, and also getting set up in my new "home". What seemed to be a far off picture in my mind of what I was "striving for", has now become reality. They say persistence and faith are what keep a man from quitting or giving up. I know that is true beyond a shadow of a doubt. Something bigger than me must have been guiding my course all along.My road seems to have been paved with a million pot holes and detours. Every time it appeared that my tank was empty, yet one more station popped up ahead as I rolled in on fumes. Life is just that way for all of us it seems. We never make it to that perfect place, the perfect relationship, nor the perfect arena where happiness is a 24 hour a day sublime consciousness. I see the life journey as more of a long roller coaster that is always close to flying off the track in each hairpin turn.
You know, sometimes when you get lost, it forces you to find yourself once again. What's important to you, and what you stand for. I will never claim to be the best person in the world, and see my mistakes and shortcomings with a magnifying glass. I also know that deep down my soul carries with it a joy, and a love for others. My past may not be the best example of this, but I believe that self improvement and self re-creation is the strongest way to adapt, and reach out ... searching for the greatest moment of all. " The moment you can look in the mirror and see a good person ". When you can do that .... everything else seems to fall in place.
This is my first post written from the new Hollydale. This town is very similar to where I once lived, but it has far greater possibilities. The stars shine brighter. The air smells fresher, and my smile seems to last just a bit longer. I think I will like it here ....
